Stiri noi de mama

Dupa o noapte plina de dureri insuportabile, calmantele nu si-au facut efectul deloc, mama a primit morfina, nu a rezistat la MRI, si a facut CT, unde au descoperit o punga de puroi, abces, intr-un muschi langa coloana vertebrala. E pe calmante foarte puternice acuma, si combinatie de trei antibiotice, si miine vor decide daca-i ii prea riscant sa faca drenaj. Acuma mama se odihneste dupa ce a putut manca un pic si va multumim din inima de sustinerile in rugaciune. Ne rugam pentru o vindecare completa.

Rebeca nu va fi operata!!! Doctorul a spus ca nu-i periculos, asa ca vor reveni inapoi cand va avea 6 ani.

Doamne multumim mult de o asa mama puternica:)

Update

God is good. Thank you for your support in prayers:)

Mom had a horrible night, full of severe pain, non-stop, and none of the sedatives worked. Today after some morphine, the pain became bearable and did a CT scan, right after she could’t lie down in the MRI more than a few minutes due to pain. The CT shows an abscess in a muscle close to her spine, which most likely is pushing against some nerves to produce such pain and none of the surgeons present there felt qualified to drain it. Neuro will tell us tomorrow if they could. She’s on a strong combination of three antibiotics now and strong sedatives, and mom was finally able to eat something and now she’s resting. Due to her kidney failure the toxins from all the medication is a concern, but we, the family, are so very glad to see her void of pain. No mother should have to endure such pain, no one in fact. She’s such a strong woman.

Thank you for your continued prayers and we’re glad they’ve found the infection and treatment is on.

After the doctor appointment today, my baby niece Rebeca will not have surgery:) The doctors don’t think it’s problematic other than the esthetics of it. So that’s good news as well:)

 

God Bless

Zambeste

Desi incercarile vin multumim lui Dumnezeu pentru puterea de a zambi cand durerea ne inconjoara.

Mama e internata de Sambata, desi durerile puternice de sold au inceput cu cateva zile inainte si mama nu mai putea merge. Infectia de la caterer (pentru dializa -rinichii nu mai functioneaza), ia intrat in corp si se pare ca sa asezat la sold, e in dureri imense non-stop de cateva zile in ciuda medicamentelor calmante, dar doctorul tot schimba medicamentele incercand medicamente din ce in ce mai puternice. Nu stiti cat de mult apreciem rugaciunile tuturor, si-i multumim Bunului Dumnezeu ca ne-a binecuvantat cu o mama asa de puternica.

Miine, sora mea cea mica merge la doctor cu una din gemenele ei, Rebeca, si se pare ca va urma ca Rebeca, numai doi ani, sa aiba operatie la spate unde sa nascut cu un hemanghion si in loc sa se retraga a crescut.

Va multumim din inima pentru sustinerile in rugaciune si ne bucuram mult ca putem vedea dragostea lui Dumnezeu atat direct in viata nostra dar si prin voi:)

O zi binecuvantata va doresc la toti.

Smile

Someone got into our ITunes account and purchased a few Tv episodes and a movie, same with our internet, used our data, my mom’s been admitted in the hospital a few days ago with severe pelvic pain, vomiting, shakes, fever, as a result of a catheter infection which spread inside her body now. She’s been in pain around the clock despite medication, and they’ve changed the pain medication a few times looking for something that will give her some comfort. She’s also on antibiotics. Tomorrow, my baby sister Oana’s one twin, Rebeca, has a doctor appointment and it looks like most likely she’ll end up having surgery on her back to remove a hemangioma (benign tumor) she was born with and didn’t shrink in the past two years as expected (she’s only two years old). Due to the stress, I’ve had a small regression and the babesia symptoms are lurking around but I have to smile, I really do…

We, the family, thank you for all your prayers and we thank God for success in the end. I’m so very thankful to have such a strong mother, and family.

Thank you God for being with us in the midsts of our challenges.

God Bless.

Introverts and Extroverts

My orchard (my resting place) had a simple wood bench under one tree, and I sat there waiting for God today. He came and looked exactly like the religious images I’ve seen through the years have portrayed him: a young man with a long beard and hair dressed in a long gray rope. He reached out and took my hand. We both got up and before taking one step further he changed into an identical version of myself when I was ten years of age. I was suddenly ten years old as well. Hand in hand we skipped and laughed with the purest touches of laughter and the richest form of happiness.

“Where are we going?” I asked.

“Why do we need to go somewhere in order to be?” And he/she reminded me of something I once knew: as a child, you go nowhere but you are.  And that’s where happiness, contentment, love in its purest of forms, acceptance of everyone, embracing the new, trusting, eagerness to learn and explore, ability to change mind and will if necessary, lives.

Its as if somewhere is an extrovert rushing on the road to nowhere, passing by be millions of times, blind to the importance of stopping and having a relationship together. Soon the rushing shallows, emties, frustrates, closes somewhere’s mind, making it rigid. Every time somewhere passes an opportunity to be, loses a potential for growth until its very essence is dipleated of health and sickness of the mind, soul and spirit settle.

Be, on the other hand, has time to live, to think, to love and to express the importance of many things. Be slows time down and listens, but needs somewhere once it knows its purpuse. Be is an introvert.

Be and somewhere are better together than apart, and our western culture glorifies somewhere while marginalizing be. It’s a big imbalance which leads to all sorts of pain and loss. They’re equally important.

For those who read this and are a bit uncomfortable with the phrasing (may seem new-age to you), God wants you to be at ease and gives you evidence in the Bible for what I’ve written above.

Psalm 46:10; Exodus 14:14; Psalm 62:5; Proverbs 8:34; Luke 24:2; these are only a few of the many Bible verses that go along to what he showed me. I understand its a new point of approach but we both know God speaks in many ways to all of us. That’s the beauty of it all.

God Bless:)

The Resting Place of Your Soul

“You who want peace can find it only by complete forgiveness.” Helen Schucman, A Course in Miracles
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“Peace cannot be achieved through violence; it can only be attained through understanding.” Ralph Waldo Emerson
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“The freest people in the world are those who have senses of inner peace about themselves: They simply refuse to be swayed by the whims of others, and are quietly effective at running their own lives.” Wayne Dyer,

In front of me stood a memory of long ago- an orchard- and in the inner quietness of my still body and mind, I began to tear up. The trees were past the blooming season, and its fruits, far to early to eat, were a great promise of what was to come. The orchard belonged to a female classmate’s parents, back in Romania, and at the tender age of thirteen, I had no idea this image would come back to me years later to teach me a lesson, a good lesson.

“What does it mean, God?”

“What does it mean to you, Carmen?” So I thought some more, this time letting my heart speak to me.

“Resting point. But why am I crying from a memory so very beautiful?”

“Because of its significance.”

“Which is?”

The silence meant I had to figure that one out.

“Rest.”

“And do you have it?”

“Mostly, I do.”

“Today?”

“No, not today.”

There are some inner changes happening in my soul, good changes, but as most of you know change brings along a certain mix of emotions, none need to be frightening.

I’ve never denied my love for God, but I’ve denied church and religion, especially lately. After all, I met people in church willing to hurt me and my family, some in the name of God, most in the name of self-satisfaction and egotistical needs. I’m sure you have met some yourself. But I wonder how many times I too was placed in those categories by another? But this is a subject for another post, another day.

My need, a healthy one, to form relationships with people and attend a church comes from a want to heal. Isolation, even from a medical point of view and scientifical evidence is not healthy. I’ve had a fantastic support group when I was too weak to go anywhere but now that I can, I want to find a church and hopefully grow in a healthy way, not a religious way.

I’ve prayed and meditated, I’ve listened to a sermon done by Rick Warren called “the Battle of the Mind” and a podcast called “You Listen to you” by Rob Bell (considered by some religious folks a heathen). To me, Rob Bell is a very intelligent human being with some amazing answers or explanations to some of the questions I’ve carried in my heart for many years.

Two styles of thinking and speaking: the first one, although intelligently put, left a trace of guilt (not conviction) behind, the second one left a trace of hope and goodwill. First one spoke in the familiar language of the church the second one in a new and upcoming style. I got some answers to the inner struggle but not a complete picture and I’m fine with that. It’s my search, thus my effort.

But back to the orchard; to me signifies peace and rest, a season I had to be in these past four years in order to heal, but in this season I’ve learned more than any season of health and busyness taught me, and I do confirm: we can hear God better in the stillness of self, in the intimacy of time, space, and effort.

What is your resting place? I don’t like telling people what to do, I figure everyone already knows what they want to do and their actions prove it, but as a gentle advise I can tell you one thing that seems to be valuable; we all need a resting place and we all need to visit this place often.

I’ve been able to forgive (and mean it) my parents finally, after 40 years of struggle and pain and I’m at peace. I trust God more than ever now, for that, I’m at peace. I’m very thankful for my life, for that I’m at peace. Don’t confuse temporary irritations and frustrations that come and go from living this life, I go through them, I feel them fully, I react to them, but I forgive and move on because I want to be healthy.

I sincerely want you to be at peace in the midsts of your life, even if it’s not functioning as you dreamed of, hoped for or envisioned it would. May God’s peace be upon you and your family, within you and your family and all around you like a healing oitment.

God Bless.