HAPPY NEW YEAR! / LA MULTI ANI!

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To my friends and Family I send your way a joyous Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For our family, 2015 was a year full of heavy trials, of tears and of intense pain, yet through it all I smiled a ton, I prayed like never before and I hoped fiercely. I loved every privilege I had with you wether that was in person or over the social network. I have never thanked God for small things like I did this year. Only those doing the suffering understand the priceless value of happy moments, genuine smiles and meaningful conversations. That being said, let’s live a life full of forgiveness and we shall see our life blossom into something new and beautiful:) Happy New Year!

 

LA MULTI ANI familiei si prietenilor din toata lumea. Fara voi nu as fi putut trece cu usurinta peste navalurile grele ale anului 2015, si pentru asta ii multumesc Bunului Dumnezeu ca ma imbogatit cu asa familie si prieteni buni:) Va doresc un an plin de pace launtrica linga Bunul Dumnezeu:) Cu drag, eu;)

Some time passed/ A trecut ceva timp.

In addition to the medication I’m on a gluten free, dairy free, sugar free, chemical and processed foods free, no alcohol, no coffee diet, I consume lots of liquids, no meat except salmon, fresh fruit and veggies juicing, organic fruits and veggies, no fear and anger diet and lots of forgiveness and laughter diet:)

Pe linga medicamente sint pe dieta fara zahar, produse lactate, glutamina, cafea sau alcohol, nimic cu chimicale, multe lichide, sucuri naturale facute acasa, foarte putina carne, pe dieta de glume si buna dispozitie, atitudine pozita asupra vietii si multa iertare.

 

Chapter 4 available.

Capitolul 4 valabil.

Well, Well Do I have some good news for you!

Damean family (my maiden name, thus my brothers, sisters, in laws, parents) are celebrating big time! My baby sister Oana gave birth yesterday to twin girls! Yep, you read correctly- TWIN GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m over the moon and walking on clouds. And we all needed this, after finding out that my grandma on my father’s side died on Sunday and one of my brother is suspect for TB (tuberculosis). Thank you God for such precious blessings coming in our midst, we’re celebrating big, by preparing a work load for Thanksgiving:) If I drank alcohol I would get drunk now, but I feel drunk anyway, alcohol free, just from pure happiness:)

Rebeca and Sara, were born yesterday around 2:25 pm,  Rebeca at 4 pounds 9 oz and 17 inches long and Sarah at 5 pounds 5 oz and 17 inches long, in two and a half hours, natural birth, healthy babies, healthy mama, thank you God! They make number 16 and 17 in grandkids. They were born in Germany:)

About any of my health updates… who cares! I have twin nieces!!!!!!!!!!

Rebeca to the left (eyes open) and Sarah to the right (crying)

Sarah’s always hungry:) Rebeca just ate:)

Sarbatoare mare in familie la noi!!!!!!! Au venit gemenele!!!!!! Sora mea mica Oana a nascut ieri la 11.45 seara in Germania doua fetite gemene, si aveam nevoie de asa celebrare dupa ce aflasem ca Duminica bunica din partea tatalui nostru a murit.

Rebeca are 2260g si 45cm iar Sara 2520g si 45 cm, nastere naturala far complicatii. Doamne mare esti si-ti multumim mult:))))))))) Acuma parintii au 17 nepoti. (Desi ei sint in drum spre Moldova la inmormintare).

If I feel crummy, does that count? ? Daca ma simt nasol, conteaza

Yesterday I went to see Sharpy’s cousin again (IV treatment, minerals and Bio-Oxygen) and I found him in better spirits than last time. However, I don’t know what grudge he held against my nurse when he bit her (she poked herself while prepping my IV bag). That changed the course of who was going to poke me, fortunately it wasn’t as bad as expected. The whole shebang lasts a healthy three hours and some days I fell like I’m moving in. At least I didn’t have the eight-hour bag hooked to me, like I found out another patient had to do in the past. Well my blood was much darker than last time, and I raised my chest high with pride over that minute accomplishment only to deflate moments later when my nurse told me it’s not a good sign.

What? Why not?

It means you’re either low in oxygen, you’re fighting something or there’s too much iron in your blood. You want to see your blood nice and bright.

Come to think of it, I am fighting something, there is a low production of oxygen in my blood, as for the third reason, does it really matter? It’s only by God’s grace that I’m alive and healing.

However, today (the next day) I feel so crummy I think they should call this extra crummy with a side order of nausea, headaches or most likely migraine, fatigue, faint feeling, and very weak. I guess deep cleaning my house is out of the question for today:)))))))) As after the previous minerals and Bio- Oxygen IV, I had a fever before falling asleep, woke up around 2 am feeling like I was going to vomit and pass out from lack of fresh air. I needed cold air, for I felt too hot. Now, don’t go thinking I’m complimenting myself, I meant too warm:) The Shot-term memory is having a little troubles it seems too, but then again that could be a blessing in disguise, so I won’t remember all the things my kids do to annoy me. They seem to have an over qualification in this department. Shhh, so do I 😉 This is a typical after shock, in few days I’ll start feeling stronger. Until than, where is my bed!

On a different note, HAPPY B-DAY TO MY DAD!!!!!

Ieri, am participat intentionat intru-o alta repriza de Perfuzii (minerale si oxigen), cu efort minimalistic din partea mea:) Am stat in fotoliu trei ore atasata de noii mei prieteni, perfuziile. Singele mi-era mult mai inchis ca prima data si mi-am infoiat cheptul cu mindrie ca apart semne bune, numai sa mi se desumfle in citeva secunde odata ce asistenta mi-a zis ca nu-i semn asa bun. De ce? am intrebat eu. “Inseamna ca nu ai destul oxigen in singe, corpul se lupta cu o infectie sau ai prea mult fier in singe.” Am stiut ca nu am oxigen destul deasta ma voluntariez la perfuzii, corpul meu se lupat nu numai impotriva unei infectii ci impotriva unui batalion intreg de ingectii cit despre fier in singe… mai conteaza acuma detaliile astea mici. Numai cu ajutorul Bunului Dumnezeu sint in viata si ma pun incetul pe piciore:) Vad ca am un pic probleme sa retin memoriile sau informatii primite imediat (shot-term memory) dar am stiut ca drumul spre vindecare e pas cu pas. Ma mir ca inca imi aduc aminte cum sa scriu pe Romaneste si pe Engleza. Adevarat ca fac o gramada de greseli dar te mai uiti?

Azi (ca de obicei dupa perfuziile astea) imi vine sa ma urc pe pereti dar is prea slabita pentru asta:) Am dureri de cap angro, ma simt asa de slabita ca ma mir ca nu mi se inchid ochii automatic, am greturi si ma doare capul, am mai spus asta nu? Inseamna ca ma doare capul de doua ori mai mult decit restul simptomelor:))))))))))) Dar in vreo doua zile imi voi reveni si atunci sa vedeti actiune, fac mincare, spal rufe… ce ati crezut ca fac ceva fantastic? Si uite asa imi petrec eu zilele:))))

La multi ani la tata!!!!!

IMG_1138 IMG_1139 IMG_1140 IMG_1141When a problem is too close to home look up, there’s always a ray of sun God sends ready to strengthen  and warm you up:) Blood too dark. Medication so my blood would not coagulate as the nurse preps the minerals IV bag. Minerals IV.

Cind problemele sint prea apropiate de tine, priveste in sus, Dumnezeu trimite raze de soare sa te imputerniceasca si sa-ti aduca caldura in inima. Singele prea inchis. Medicament impotriva coagularii in timp ce asistenta pregateste cealalta perfuzie. Perfuzie de minerale. 

Let’s review:) Revizuire

One year ago October 2014-

Today October 2015- 🙂

Well, well, well, it’s been a while since I’ve done a post or recorded a video, and surprisingly I’m alright with that:) But today I must clarify few things since it seems I may have the gift of confusing people (and myself most days) with incomplete information. That’s because there’s a whole lot of conversation going on in my head so I figured you all can read minds thus I don’t need to bother with details;))))) It appears that I’m wrong. Go figure.

Let’s begin. They (meaning doctors who took bunch of my precious blood, examined it under microscopes only to find nasty things that didn’t belong in my body), came up with the diagnostic of NeuroLyme Disease (yep, that means the Central Nervous System got fired aka unreliable brain faculties, aka fart brain aka cucu brain, you get the drill) and as if that wasn’t enough I collected a colorful mix of co-infections (malaria, multiple infections, fungus, toxic poisonings parasites, low cellular oxygen level, to name a few aka almost dead from a total collapse of the immune system). I was not in good shape one bit, thus I hugged my bed weakly for months on end. I know some of you envy what it may seem like a relaxing time but don’t be fooled. It was not. Far from it. Once the diagnostics came so the opinions. After I changed my doctors as often as I do my socks (and that’s quite often:) I found one that’s great. It only took me one year, three months, thousands of lost dollars, and million of seconds spent in agony. That’s all. But than the insurance decided they are not going to cover 90% of these medical costs because…. it’s working!!!! Oh well, it’s not like I had a job to get back to (no longer working), a family to take care of and a life to live.

Treatments began and it can take up to 8 more moths for a full recovery. We began with four weeks of CNS and adrenal glands shots, (big needles tickling my back), than some oral medication (great tasting treats), than first round of IV treatment (my vein made a new friend I call him Sharpy). Now we began the second round of IV (Sharpy’s cousin:) Well, yesterday I was poked three times and one hour later the doctor brought the nurse in and she put Shapry’s cousin in my vein right away:) I don’t think I like Sharpy’s cousin:( Well after words on the way home I wasn’t quite sure if Elizabeth was real or a figment of my over stimulated imagination. Got home, hugged my couch, than realized I wanted cookies. So I made some, and my body began yelling at me to go rest, so I did, smiling because I had a cookie in my hand. The end:)

ACUMA UN AN -OCTOMBRIE 2014-

ASTAZI- OCTOMBRIE 8 2015-

For all the women:) Pentru toate femeile:)

Past has dragged us through enough pain and misery in this life. So let us do something about it!

Father God I’m sorry that at one point I let fear take over my mind, that fear produced the bad habit of bitterness and anger to such extent that it stole away my true joy. I’m sorry for making excuses and holding on to that fear, for not believing you are on my side and blaming you for that fear. But I see how has been hurting my children and I can’t bear to know they’ll be wrapped up in the suffocating habit of a joyless life. I must ask for your forgiveness, I must have joy and peace so I can clearly direct my children and my grandchildren towards a life full of joy and love. I know it took time to get where I am and it may take time for me to undo this but I know that I have you on my side and all will be well. Amen

All women of past pain remember how strong you truly are. Make a habit of remembering the good things about yourself, and get in the habit of believing them. There’s always goodness in us, always value in us, always great potential. Today let it be the day you allow yourself to see what God sees, amazing potential and a great warrior:)))))))))))

Trecutu ne-a târât prin destule dureri și destula mizerie în această viață. E timpul sa schimbam anumite aspecte in felul negativ de gindire asupra proprii fiinte.

Dumnezeu Tatăl din ceruri Îmi pare rău că la un moment dat am lăsat frica să preia felul de gindire al meu, acea frica a produs prostul obicei de amărăciune și mânie în gindire in asa măsură încât mi-a furat adevărata mea bucurie. Îmi pare rău pentru ca am facut scuze in trecut sa nu alung aceasta frica, pentru că nu am avut destula credinta ca tu Doamne esti de partea mea și ca am pus vina pe tine pentru multe lucruri. Dar văd ca treaba asta mi-a rănit copiii și eu nu pot accepta să-i știu înfășurati în mod sufocant de frica si o viață lipsita de bucurie launtrica care numai Bunul Dumnezeu o poate da. Trebuie să am bucurie și pace, ca sa-mi pot educa si direcționa în mod clar atit copiii mei cit și nepoții mei spre o viață plină de bucurie și dragoste. Știu că a luat timp pentru a ajunge unde sunt și va lua timp pentru a-mi schimba felul de gindire, dar nu sint singura pe drumul asta te am pe tine o Doamne. Amin

Toate femeile ale durerilor din trecut aduceti-va aminte cat de puternice sinte-ti:)  Face-ti-va un nou obicei, de a va aminti lucrurile bune asupra fiintei voastre, și de a lua în obiceiul de a crede aceste lucruri bune. Există întotdeauna bunătate în noi, întotdeauna valoare în noi, întotdeauna un mare potențial. Astăzi lăsați să fie o zi in care sa vă permiteți să vedeți ceea ce vede Dumnezeu in voi, potențial uimitor! :))))