Today I was able to exercise for one whole minute:))))))))))))

We had a great day yesterday! My girl, Meleah, turned 18th!!!!! Pushed by the desire to buy her a card and flowers I drove, for the first time since my last ER trip back in October! Feeling clear minded and strong in the body it was such a thrill full of thankfulness and joy! Thank you for your prayers, financial support and words of encouragement. I could have not done it without you! Thank God for his mercy on me!

I will bless you with a future filled with hope- a future of success, not of suffering. Jeremiah 29:11 This is the verse for today from my Bible app, I also have this verse engraved by my bed side given to me by my brother Marius years ago. I clung to it in my lowest of moments.

Am avut o zi excelenta ieri! Majoratul fetei mele, Meleah:) Impinsa de dorinta de ai cumpara flori si o felicitare, pentru prima data de cind ma luat cu ambulanta pe 16 Octombrie, am condus! Mintea mi-a fost clara si corpu puternic si a fost o experienta plina de multumire si bucurie. Va multumesc de rugaciuni, de suportul financiar si de cuvintele pline de incurajare:) Nu as fi putut trece peste obstaculul acesta fara D-zeu si vara sprijinul vostru. Ii multumesc lui D-zeu pentru mila lui asupra mea.

Caci eu stiu gindurile care le am cu privire la voi, zice Domnul, ginduri de pace si nu de nenorocire, ca sa va dau un viitor si o nadejde. Ieremia 29:11

Acesta este versetul zilei. Il am gravat pe o placuta de sticla, cadou de la fratele meu Marius, dat acuma citiva ani, pus pe noptiera. In zilele cele mai negrea, lugita in pat il citeam mereu.

Meleah’s 18th B-day:)

My brothers Leo and Iuli, back in Romania, during the voting period.

We just got back our power and it was nice to eat a warm meal. The winds are still pretty strong here but the sun is such a beautiful sight.

What do you do when bad news comes your way?

I want to talk a little bit about the fear and anxiety that comes with a diagnosis. It can go both ways based in totality by the diagnostic. If it’s a small matter, relief follows. But what happens when it’s not a small matter, what happens when the road ahead begins to look longer and far scarier than originally perceived?

First you must calm down the torrent of fear and anxiety that may whirlpool in your brain after hearing the diagnostic that can sound something close to a sentence.

Pray! Pray with a clear mind and with a hopeful spirit. Have faith to believe the very words you  heard  so many times before but never had to really apply them in your life, until now.

Don’t make up “worse case scenarios!”, don’t go there!, instead look at your best case scenarios. You will not be the scary story of a person you once knew, or their relative or someone you heard about it in the past and brushed it aside with a” that’s so terrible” sort of thinking.

Don’t make up symptoms that may not be there. Research all possible angles LOOKING for a positive testimony and the how to’s behind it. Don’t allow morbid thoughts to take over, think rational about the situation in front of you as if  you’re looking for an answer, than have faith the answer will come. ( Don’t go on the other extreme either by saying “I leave it all in the hands of God WITHOUT doing anything about it. That’s pure laziness. You have to fight for your health. There is no other way to put it, but in your fight and on the road to recovery make sure you have God yon your side. Sometimes, that simply means surround yourself with people who believe for healing, that are willing to fight alongside yourself, that love you in your low times (for they will surely come), that will laugh with you through every single victory, pray with you and for you when you’re too weak to do it alone, advise you well, encourage you when you feel like there’s no point going on.

Listen to your gut. Doctors are humans beings with a particular knowledge and some are driven by wrong reasons, so you have to be your best advocate other wise you will end up a victim of lack-of-concern, money-making, personal agendas and inaptitude.

Educate yourself properly, not through the story of so and so, but through facts. Learn about alternative medication, like a better diet or life style.

Don’t accept your new diagnosis as your new life-style!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s an enemy! It’s here to kill and destroy you, your joy, your hope, your smile, your courage, your time spent with loved ones, your clarity of mind, your faith in God, your beauty both body and mind followed by the spirit. This is a serious enemy and its full intent is to destroy you. Treat it as such! Your family, friends and future loves one need you alive and well:) God needs you to fight so you can praise him by telling everyone around you how He help you overcome. You’re not weak! You may feel weak, but that does not mean that you’re weak. You’re simply going through a battle and sometimes this battle is overwhelmingly strong but not necessarily fatal.

Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you’re healed. Sounds crazy? You do it everytime you tell yourself that you’re fat, or your hips are too big, or your breast too small, or you’re not tall enough, or you’re bald etc. So why not tell yourself something you wan to happen to you, like being healed. Christ died already for us to have that healing, why not believe it?

Don’t allow negative people around. Don’t listen, watch or read popular information that shows death, sickness and disease. It’s very tempting because you know exactly how it feels to be there, but unless you want to stay there, don’t do it.

Even when you don’t feel like, imagine yourself healthy, doing things you love with the people you love:) Imagine your healthy self in the near future.

Pray and believe that God healed you! Than brag about the way he went about it and did it.

P.S. I have days that are absolutely awful and I’m tempted to give up because it feels easier than continuing to fight. But I imagine how devastated I would be if my husband or kids gave up if they were in my shoes and for their sake I keep fighting. We need those visual images when death seems to knock on the door and you may be tempted to open and let it in. But it’s not over unless we make it happen.

I pray this may be of some help to you. Keep your chin up and smile back at sickness with a stubborn resolution to beat it:)

La noi sint vijelii si sa luat curentul vreo patru ore. Dar a venit inapoi sint am fost fericita sa maninc ceva cald.

Ce iti spui tie in sine cind vin greautati neasteptate?

Vreau sa vorbesc un pic de frica si panica care vine cu un diagnostic de sanatate neplacut. Unele diagnostice sint rudimentare, ca atare nu le dam prea multa importanta ca stim ca-i foarte temporar si sanatatea va veni urma fara mari probleme. Dar ce se intimpla cind diagnosticu e grav si calea spre insanatosire este mult mai lunga sau mai subreda decit ti-ai imaginat?

Primul lucru, incearca sa-ti calmezi ploaia torentiala formata din frica si panica care-ti va invada creierul imediat dupa ce ai auzit diagnosticul care suna ca o sentinta.

Roaga-te! Roaga-te cu o minte clara si cu un spirit plin de speranta. Ai credinta si crede cuvintele care poate pina acuma numai le-ai auzit dar nu a fost necesar sa le pui in practica inca.

Nu asculta si crede cazuri de boala cu sfirsit neplacut vorbite fara cuget sau intelepciune de guri fara intelepciune. In loc, cauta pe cei care au trecuit biruitori prin situatii similare si ascultale sfaturile. Nu decide ca tu vei fi cazul cel mai rau, cu simptomele cele mai urite si cu sfirsitul cel mai crunt. Nu deschide urechea la gurile pline de birfa care vor sa imprastie numai vesti proaste si fara speranta.

Nu-ti imagina simptome pe care nu le ai, simplu pentru ca zice careva ca ar trebui sa le ai in cazul tau. Educate bine de la surse de incredere, uitindu-te dupa mod de rezolvare si insanatosire. Alunga ginduri morbide, gindeste rational si ai credinta ca raspunsul de la D-zeu (prin doctori sau alte surse) va aparea. Pe de alta parte nu spune “faca-se voia Lui” FARA sa incerci sa lupti si sa gasesti raspunsuri pentru insanatosire. Asta este o scuza pentru lenevie. Tu trebuie sa lupti pentru sanatetea si insanatosirea ta!

Nu acepta ce spune numai un doctor, ci incearca sa gasesti alte opinii de la alti doctori care pot avea mai multa experienta in a trata boala.

Nu-ti acepta diagnosticul ca noul mod de viata!!!!!!!!!!! Este un dusman! A venit sa distruga si sa omoare. sa-ti distruga fericirea, speranta, curaju, timpul petrecut alaturi de cei dragi, claritatea mintii, credinta in D-zeu, frumusetea inauntrica si cea care se vede (corpul). Asta este un dusman cu intentia sa te distruga. Trateaza-l ca atare! Nu fa pact de prietenie cu boala si incepe a spune cuvinte; pai boala me. Familia ta, prietenii tai si cei dragi care inca nu i-ai intilnit au nevoie de tine in deplina sanatate. D-zeu vrea ca tu sa lupti si sa vezi boala ca pe dusmanul care de fapt este, si dupa ce te vindeci sa-i dai slava Lui prin cuvintele tale de proslavire:) Tu nu esti slab (slaba)! Poate ai momente de slabiciune, (toti avem momentele astea, absolut toti de pe pamint), dar asta nu inseamna ca esti slab (slaba), ci ca au venit peste tine anumite momente care te fac sa cazi momentar, dar deasta ai nevoie de oameni de baza si incredere, care te pot sustine si sprijini atunci cind esti cu fata la pamint. Cunosc cultura Romaneasca (de fapt e la fel in toata parte Europei de Est) unde se crede ca esti slab daca experimentezi slabiciuni in viata. Dar nu este Biblic felul asta de a gindi si vedea lucrurile. De asta D-zeu ne sfatueste sa fim alturi de cei cazuti, sa-i sustinem si sa-i incurajam ca intr-o buna zi tu vei avea nevoie de aceeasi incurajare care o dai altuia in momentul greau.

Nu acepta sa asculti sfaturi negaitve si pline de cuvinte de frica. Nu te uita sau citi informatii pline de boala, moarte sau deznadejde.

Chiar daca nu crezi inca, imagineaza-te in viitorul apropriat plin the sanatate alaturi de cei dragi.

Roaga-te si crede ca D-zeu te-a vindecat desi poate nu experimentezi pe deplin simptomele. De obicei crezi prima data si pe urma simptomele vin.

p.s. Sint zile in viata mea in momentul de fata care sint groaznice din punct de vedere a suferintei si in acele momente sint temptata sa ma las batuta ca-i mult mai usor decit sa lupt in continuare. Dar ma gindesc cum m-as simti eu daca (pusi in aceeasi situatie) copii mei sau sotul meu sar lasa batuti. Durerea in suflet ca ias pierde e asa de mare ca-mi da vlaga sa lupt in continure. Si trebuie sa incercam sa ne punem in papucii altora inainte de a decide cei mai usor pentru noi.

Ma rog ca Bunul D-zeu sa va dea putere sa mergeti in continuare cu tarie reinointa:)

Flash back among friends and family:) What a blessing to have loved ones in my life:) Some of Chet’s great work.

Ce binecuvintare este sa am persoane dragi in viata mea:) Chet (sotul meu) a facut videourile.

Today is a good day:)))))))))))) I’ve been off Tindamax (3rd antibiotic) the past three days and been drinking lots of warm water with lemon juice to detox, Burbur drops (for detox), and although I have a constant bitter/ metallic taste in my mouth, my skin is very dry and i still can’t do chores for a prolonged period of time, it’s a good day!!!!!!! My husband got a new job (he’s contracting for a project) and he’d also got paid (one paycheck, three paychecks to date remaining to be paid). Although I feel good, my brain is till foggy and difficult to put thoughts together, (I’ve noticed, as I’m trying to write these lines down) but no matter, God’s still on our side. On all of our sides, mine and yours:)

Azi e o zi buna:))) De trei zile nu am mai luat Tindamax (al 3lea antibiotic), beau multa apa calduta cu lamiie (pentru detoxificare) si iua medicamente pe baza naturala pentru detoxificare. Si desi inca am gust amar in gura si pielea mie foarte uscata si inca nu pot face multe lucruri pentru o perioda lunga de timp, azi e o zi buna:)))) Mintea inca nu e complet clara si mi-e greau sa ma concentrez la scris dar e o zi buna unde nu simt ca viata mie in pericol. Salutari celor dragi, familie si prietenilor:) Ne punem in continuare nadejdea in Bunul Dumnezeu:)

This morning found out one of my brothers took a trip to the ER. All is well, he had a panick attack I believe due to stress. He’s been a little solicited lately and I believe a good vacation would do his health a whole lot of good.

Pentru Romania:) si Romanii mei:)

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!

Today is a special day for us:) My sweet Chet is turning 50!!!!!!!! He’s the most special man in my life and I’m truly a  better woman for knowing him:)))))) His patient, sweet personality has tought me so much the past 21 years and I’m sooo blessed for having him in my life!!!!!!! May God continue to bless you with strength, health and joy. I know the past year it’s been very hard seeing me hurting and you’ve been soooo brave and strong, handling everything with such ease, even when things seems scary and hope felt out of our reach.

Dear Chet:))))

Yesterday I was too weak to record a video. My body got sooo fed up with all the pills I had to take and decided to skipp a round of supplements intake. Big mistake! I woke up yesterday sooo very weak I felt faint for the better part of the  morning, realizing the evil of pill intake was more beneficial than skipping them. At least for now.

Had more blood drawn for further testing.

The picture was taken on Oct. 25th when I had to give 20 tubes of blood. Yesterday they took only two:)

Ieri am fost prea slabita sa inregistrez video. Corpul sa saturat de atitea pastile si am decis sa nu iau o doza de pilule pe baza naturala. Greseala mare! M-am trezit ieri dimineata cu o slabiciune si simt de lesin in corp care mi-a furat o buna parte din zi. Iarasi am donat ceva singe, pentru alte analize:)

 

Laugh:)))))))))) It’s good for your health:))))))))))))))))

Today I woke up burdened by financial stress since the company my husband works for is having financial difficulties resulting in unpaid days off and delayed paychecks. ( Three paycheck delays as of now). I felt anxious about adding the third antibiotic since I had few bad reactions from the second one (stomach pain, thyroid inflammation, headaches). So… I woke up feeling burdened and somewhat tired of all these challenges. However, I received a phone call from a good friend (who’s going through some hard times herself) and that reminded me, once again, that I’m not the only one hurting.

Have a good day:)

I have glossy eyes here and my brain is a little foggy white recording this video. 10:00 am

Salutari celor dragi. Azi ma simt un pic obosita, am adaugat al 3-lea si ultimul antibiotic dar am o gramada de pastile pe baza naturala care le iau ( de 7 ori pe zi) ca sa refaca corpul. Luptam in continuare:)

The rest of the day went by suprisingly well and I had energy to make dinner!!!!!!!!!!!

Gluten Free bread (in a bread machine)

Bean and sausage soup

Raw cabbage salad

Dinner was spent in laughter and fun, then… suddenly and out of nowhere… a reaction.