Buhner Protocol

Hope is a dangerous thing. It can break through any dark matter and bring along the light we need and long for.

I’ve purchased the latest expanded and revised book called Healing Lyme written by Stephen Harrod Buhner.

It’s been five years since I found out I had Lyme, so why wait until now to read some of these books ? I suppose due to couple factors. In the beginning 95% of anything I read I could not process or retain.Once I pushed past that I was too overwhelmed by the enormity of the situation, a situation without a positive finality. No cure for Lyme is something I hear often yet I have a hard time accepting. How I see it, there’s a cure for everything. We simply need to find it, and hopefully during our life-time.

The additional pain that comes from a relapse pushes me yet again into the research field, because we all know pain is the best incentive to make us act, and have come face to face, yet again, with the Buhner protocol, a treatment I heard about with many positive results but never tried it al least not in its entirety.

Yesterday was my first day, and all was good but today I have a very big headache and I feel funny (nausea, headaches, feel like Im getting a nose bleed, fatigue and pain behind my eyes). I’ll have to reduce the doses.

I’m following the example Buhner has in his book for a Neuroborreliosis protocol, since it got in my brain, which consists of the following tinctures.

*Polygonum cudpidatum or Japanese Knotwood tincture- 1/2tsp, 3-6x daily -for endothelial protection.

*Salvia Miltiorrhiza or Sage and Scutellaria baicalensis or Skullcap combined tinctures, 1tsp 3x daily for cytokine remodulation.

*Cordyceps/ Eleutherococcus/Uncaria tomentosa or Cat’s claw combined tincture, equal parts of each, 1.5tsp 3x day for immune remodulation.

*Glycyrrhiza or Licorice tincture, 1/4 tsp 3x daily. (not if you have high blood pressure) for immune remodulation.

Uncaria rhynchophylla, 1/2-1 tsp 3-6x daily for neuroborreliosis.

*Withania somnifera or ashwagandha. Powder: 1/2 tsp am, 1tsp before bed time (pm) for immune remodulation.

*Andrographis, 1-2 600mg capsules 3-6x daily, antispirochetal.

Tryptophan, 1500 mg 3x daily for neuroborreliosis.

*Great lakes gelatin powder, 1 Tbl. in the morning with water or juice for collagen.

*Vitamin C, 1000-3000mg daily for collagen protection.

*Selenium, 200mcg daily for collagen protection.

All supplements with a * are part of the core protocol, so you can add to this protocol based on your needs. The book has a long list of other tinctures to add.

In addition to this I take Sida Acuta tincture, since my body has always responded extremely well to it, weather is in IV form or tincture. I don’t respond well when its in pill format. Sida Acuta helps with tremors associated with neuroborreliosis.

Burbur-Pinella tincture helped with the headache.

Like I said, hope is a dangerous thing, it stubbornly pushes through dark walls looking for a way out. God, I pray I’ll find my way out so others can find theirs. Thx.

God Bless:)

Step 9- Setbacks and relapses

Imagine me sighing now, because that’s what I’m doing and I haven’t begun writing this blog yet.

Thank God for artist like Mandisa, for friends and loved ones, for great hubbies and wives, for sisters, parents, brothers, for friends and for those wonderful people who do research work so we can find The Cure. We must find the cure! There are only so many relapses we can walk through with our heads high and hope filled hearts. But we do it! Ultimately thank God for life, shitty like it is at times is better than not having it.

Recovery from a chronic illness is an up-and-down process.* No need to beat around the bushes about this, those who suffer know this truth.

Just when you think everything is turning around, a set back kicks you in the …well just about everywhere. You’re on your back, in bed, wrapped in the blanket of pain and now what? Why God? Why again? Did I eat the wrong thing? Did I do too much? Took the wrong medication? And you trace back every single step with a fine brush and can’t seem to find anything. Or maybe you do.

My #1 flaw. With increase of energy my thirst for life returns and I end up wanting to do all those things I dreamed of doing while imprisoned in bed, so I do them! And for brief periods of time I feel like I belong in the vast community of humans where I too look and behave normal, where pain and disease are not the subject of the day, where I can be stupid and silly and alive. That’s when I collected memories. That’s what I call it. These memories are worth every single stab of pain I feel later on, because Lyme punishes us like that. If you see me out there in the world and if I’m visiting you or you’re visiting me, I’m living and loving it, even if I know Lyme’s punishments will come later on.

Fortunately, with time, these setbacks gradually become less common and less intense. * True. At least it is for me.

System disruptors that cause setbacks: poor nourishment, toxins, emotional stress, physical stress, oxidative stress (increase in inflammation), radiation (from computers and cell phones), microbiome imbalance (new bite, flue, cold, Herxheimer reaction, flu vaccine), bacterial and viral fare-ups (Epstein-Barr virus reactivation, other herpes- type viruses, Borrelia, Mycoplasma etc), drug reactions, inadequate sleep, and/or allergic reactions to herbs or drugs, or even food, travel or stressful events, or if you’re like me I enter complacency- do more and eat more sugar. The weather changes also affect us, less sun and more cold, rainy, humid days bring the flare-up fast. Cancer, menopause and other such unexpected illnesses, it can do a number on the body.

General Guidelines: If you can get sun or move to a sunny area, do it. REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did I make that clear? I hope so:) Lots of liquids and when I say liquids I mean water, tea (ginger) and natural non-sugary drinks. Vitamin C, turmeric and boswellia to reduce inflammation, Enzymes to help you break down the food you eat. The best one is just eating pineapple or take Bromelain, Omega-3 fatty acids, heat, CBD oil (I take that quite a bit during flare-ups, it keeps me sane), herbal supplements, go outside and breath fresh air and walk barefoot on the dirt, meditate, make your world smaller, try to exercise-Yoga is good- (now this is one of those catch 22 issues, flare-ups brings along severe fatigue symptoms and we only have a certain small amount of energy every day and many times we have to choose between cooking or exercising) but endorphins suppress pain and enhance immune function.

And the hardest one of all, figure out how to reduce fear. Yeah, easier said than done, right?

How do I do it? Well, I cry first and I get angry then I start formulating a plan. I’ll give you some ideas, but if you have other ones please share them and I’ll add them here.

Plan ideas

What do I want to do this summer? Realistic goals only. Everyone can make their way outside and lay on a piece of grass and soak the sun, for example. So look forward to those activities.

What new recipes do I want to make? (Most days I only want to eat sugar, so this one is tough:).

What friends do I want to see once I feel better? Assuming they’re still talking to me;)

How can I be part of my children’s lives more?

What hobby brings me peace? I should start that hobby then. So on.

In conclusion, please rest, surround yourself with good and positive encouragement material via books, shows, friends, activities and look forward for the happy spring and summer seasons. Keep fighting because a cure will be found:)

I hope some of this information has been helpful to you:)

God Bless:)

* Quotes or information taken from Williams Rawls book, Unlocking Lyme.

Step 7- Dealing with biofilm aka slime

Oh my gosh do I hate biofilm!

Biofilms are colonies of microbes. They hide safely inside a protective polysaccharide shell which protects the organisms inside from starvation, drying out, the immune system, and antibiotics. Inside they’re free to mingle and exchange information.* As M.D. William Rawls put it in his book Unlocking Lyme; “imagine a crowded dance floor with bodies squeezed together forming a uniform mass swaying to the rhythm of the music.”

If immune function is compromised, like in chronic immune dysfunction, biofilm can form on surfaces of the body. It’s very hard to rid your body of these biofilms and when the bacteria, viruses, protozoa and fungi finds the environment safe they come out (multiplied by now) and goes wild in the body causing the known relapses and/or other complications.

Common biofilm illnesses include bacterial vaginosis, chronic UTI’s, chronic sinusitis, chronic bronchitis, middle ear infections in children, heart valve infections. “Lyme disease is not primarily a biofilm disease.” According to M.D. William Rawls. However, symptoms of Lyme disease are caused by the bacteria manipulating the immune system to generate inflammation, and it can allow the biofilm generated by other bacteria to flourish. Ex: Dizziness common in Lyme disease may be related to biofilm formation with calcium deposits in the inner ear probably caused by other baacteria.*

How can you overcome biofilm?

A strong immune system will do it:)

Herbal therapy with antimicrobial and immune-enhancing properties (garlic, zinc, elderberry, echinacea, mushrooms, sage, artemisia, calendula, capsicum etc). Personally I respond really well to artemisia.

Essential oils like eucalyptus and thyme.

Protein-digesting enzymes.

Monolaurin- comes from coconut fat.

NAC (N-acetyl cysteine.

EDTA, a chelating agent.

Oxygen and nitric oxide. *

More research is needed and being done on biofilm, but one think research has shown is the ineffectiveness of antibiotic treatment against biofilms.

On a personal note, I believe based on the research I did, that lyme bacteria can hide for years in these biofilm colonies, multiply and get stronger and a compromised immune system due to trauma, accident or serious illness can trigger them and set them free to cause extensive damage in the body. For me personally was a combination of my little brother Fanu passing away and third pregnancy. I absolutely love Alex, my third and don’t regret anything but I will forever miss my little brother, Fanu.

Hope some of this information has been of help to you today and keep fighting, a cure may be around the corner:)

God Bless:)

*Quotes or information taken from the book Unlocking Lyme by William Rawls M.D.

Step 6- Suppress stealth microbes (not just Borrelia)*

Lyme is a cruel disease. The co-infections that come along with it are horrendous and most often worse than Borrelia Burgdorferi alone.

Co-infections I suffer from are: Babesia Duncani, Bartonella, Mycoplasma Pneumoniae. In addition there’s Ehrlichia/Anaplasma/Rickettsia (the worst one) and Chlamydia. There are said to be hundreds of Borrelia versions yet undiscovered.

Viruses such as Epstein Barr Virus, Streptozyme (strep infection), MMV6 Herpesvirus have been found in my body. In addition to these there are also CMV or Cytomegalovirus, hepatitis B and C, HSV-1, HSV-2, herpes virus, HHV-6a, HHV-6b, HHV-7, parvovirus B-19, adenovirus are the most commons. There are thousands more, some undiscovered yet. Most people are carriers of some of these viruses but the immune system is stronger and keeps them in check. For Lyme patients these only add to the multi-head-monster-disease and cause serious damage.

In addition intestinal parasites, mold and toxicity and some genetic cellular dysfunctions such as HTGF C677T mutation was positive for me, a critical enzyme required for a metabolic process that repairs DNA. But the list is long in this criteria as well.

There’s also a vitamin deficiency usually present such as Vitamine D, B, and magnesium; these were in my case and can vary for others. Also the HTGF B1 or Human Transforming Growth Factor was high in my case meaning high amount of inflammation present in the body.

By now I had non-epileptic seizure (I learned that later) all the time, paralysis of arms and feet, tingling of extremities, face and lips, among my many other symptoms.

I’ve seen cardiologists, neurologists, urologist and was referred to immunologist, endocrinologist, but due to feeling too weak to stand and too poor I opted out of some.

I had Lyme for years, but I got re-bit and the high amount of trauma/stress at the time (my little brother died, pregnancy #3, school, trip to Europe and work) triggered the monster.

Symptoms of Lyme Disease and Co-infections for me: flu-like symptoms it’s how it began with face pallor, chills, muscle ache, low fever then high fever and malaise. Added along the way: numbness and tingling of upper and lower extremities, face and lips. Constant nausea. Peripheral blindness, air hunger (Babesia), rashes, joints, muscles and bone pain around the clock, dissociation, fog vision, fainting spells, rapid weight loss without activity, hyper-sensitivity to noise and light, hyper-anxiety, irritability, depression, ghost like facial paler, loss of hair/eyelashes and eyebrows, bitter/metallic taste in the mouth, stomach discomforts, swollen lymph nodes, left side pain in the spleen region, shallow breathing, irregular an heavy periods, headaches, confusion, loss of memory especially short memory, speech impairment, swollen eyelids, ovary and bladder pain, chronic UTI’s, Bell’s palsy on the right side of face, non-epileptic episodes, to name a few.

How to treat?

Since there’s no cure for Lyme Disease yet, the treatments are very controversial in the western medical circles and three weeks of antibiotics only helps half of the patients while the other half go on a life long debilitating and severely painful battle.

Advise #1 from me: Fight for your life and don’t allow the doctors to brush you aside as if you’re crazy. Most likely they’re frustrated as well by the lack of knowledge on this subject and most are scared of the CDC, a corrupt and criminal corporation in my opinion, not looking out for patience at all.

Antibiotic treatment may have helped a limited amount of people but science shows the presence of Borrelia in tissues even after treatment.

A holistic systematic approach to healing has proved to help. Tincture protocols like Buhner and Cowden as I mentioned in previous steps seem to help tremendously. Herbs and aromatherapy also do wonders, and are far more affordable than antibiotic IV’s.

Core Herbal Protocol*

Primary

Resveratrol from Japanese Knotweed: 200-800 mg, 2-3 time a day.

Andrographis: 200-800mg, 2-3 times a day.

Cat’s Claw: 400-800mg, 2-3 times a day.

Chinese Skullcap: 400-1000mg, 2-3 times a day.

Garlic with stabilized allicin:180-1200mg, 3x daily.

Sarsaparilla: 200-1000mg: 2-3 times a day.

Secondary

Cordyceps: 1-3 grams (1000-3000mg); 2-3 times daily

Reishi: 1000-2000mg, 2-3 times a day.

Eleuthero: 50-200mg 2x a day.

Supportive Supplements

NAC

Alpha Lipoic acid

Vitamin C

CoQ10

Vitamin D

Resveratrol from Japanese Knotweed

French Maritime Pine Bark

Hawthorn

Milk Thistle

Omega 3

* Treatment info comes from the book Unlocking Lyme by William Rawls, MD. Most of these treatments I take with great results. It’s the relapses that suck.

Gut restorative supplements as well as toxin and mold removal are a must. (See previous Series for more info).

Hope some of this information can help you find some answers and gives you some tools towards getting better.

God Bless:)

Step 5- Neurological Restoration

As I’m writing this series, I realize just how complicated this disease is, and why it’s so hard to treat.

“Beyound collagen, microbes- Lyme and Co-infections- commonly scavenge specialized fats in the brain and nervous system. Myelin, the fat that surrounds and insulates nerves, is a common target for Borrelia and Mycoplasma (which I was diagnosed with along with a few other co-infections). Loss of myelin and other brain fats cause a range of neurological symptoms, from tingling to burning to brain fog and depression (all symptoms I do and have experienced).*

Eggs, are a good source of lecithin and choline, both essential brain nutrients. Omega-3 fatty acids and minerals including zinc, an essential nutrient for brain function.*

Monolaurin, a fatty substance derived from coconut, is known for supressing microbes, including Borrelia.* I took this supplement for one year.

Also certain mushrooms, including lion’s mane and chaga are known for protecting and restoring the brain function. Reichi and Cordyceps mushrooms provide neuro-protective properties.* I take reichi powder in tea and it helps tremendously. Other herbs include ashwagandha and bacopa.

Lavender, rosemary and lemon balm are great essential oils to use.

I had neurotherapy injections done along the spine and in over the adrenal glands for 6 weeks, to help re-boot the parasympathetic response ( rest and digest, during which the body heals ).

The brain fog I experienced was severe and could no longer remember every day words, I skipped the order of words in a sentence, repeated one word over and over and could not remember what it meant, I had a hard time comprehending what others were telling me, if I read I could not comprehend anything and after reading one sentence ten times I gave up, etc. These are just few examples of brain fog. This however diminished almost entirely, right after I pulled my mercury fillings out.

Mold presence in the system, as well as toxins created a bomb gone wild, along with Lyme and its co-infections. Those need to be removed one at the time as not to overwhelm an already fragile body.

Anti-mold diet: avoid sugar, dried fruits, peanuts and make sure you drink plenty of water-about 10 cups a day-. Glutathione and Phosphatidychlorine Iv’s were helping bring the mold out of the body and support the nervous system. Chlorella pills help remove toxins out by binding on the toxic molecule and flushing it out through urine or sweat. Bentonite clay, activated charcoal (I can’t do this one) and infrared sauna.

Meditation and deep breathing helps quite a bit as well as yoga exercises.

Hope this info helps you and I’l be moving on to our next step:)

God Bless:)

*Quotes from the book Unlocking Lyme by William Rawls, MD

Step 4- Strengthen your immune system-Reducing Inflammation-


This step has many routes towards healing, some better than others, some easier than others and some with a far better outcome than others.

It’s not a simple 1.2.3 point presentation answer when it comes to autoimmune health battles since every single body reacts differently to treatment and Lyme Disease brings along the dangerous co-infections which alter the immune balance in various ways. My battle has a neurological angle, yours could have a cardiovascular angle, so on. Since I’m not a doctor I can only share with you my personal experience, nothing more. 

Inflammation gone wild is the biggest cause of autoimmune diseases, I believe, and by reducing it or eliminating it, you’ll see a dramatic improvement.

How am I doing it?

Eliminating all dairy products from my diet was an immediate and inexpensive route. “Antioxidants in the blood steam play an important role in reducing the damage effects of inflammation.”*- Blueberries, dark chocolate, pecans, artichokes, strawberries, green tea are some of the foods rich in antioxidants, they have to be pesticide free otherwise you fill up on toxicity. Prostaglandins: One of a number of hormone-like substance that participate in a wide range of body functions such as the contraction and relaxation of smooth muscles (ex: stomach, intestines, urinary bladder, uterus or the walls of arteries and veins, respiratory, urinary and reproductive systems), the dilation(widening) and construction (tightening) of blood vessels, control of blood pressure, and modulation of inflammation. -definition found by MedicineNet with personal notes added- “Diet rich in vegetables and omega-3 fatty acids (fish, flax, chia seeds) promotes prostaglandins that diminish the inflammatory response.”*

“Non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs such as Ibuprofin (Advil) and naproxen, artificially control inflammation by blocking key enzyme, called COX-2, and provide relief from swelling, redness and pain.”*

As for herbs that help reduce inflammation, turmeric which has curcumin (member of the ginger family) as a primary component has potent anti-inflammatory properties. Other herbs with similar properties are Boswellia serrate and devil’s claw.

Protein-digestive enzymes play a role in breaking down inflammatory debris and immune complexes. Like bromelain from pineapple and papain from papaya.

Rebuilding collagen– “The primary tissues affected by inflammation in chronic lyme disease (and I suspect Lupus or other autoimmune diseases) include joints, ligaments, muscles, brain, eyes, skin and heart. What those tissues have in common is collagen -the most abundant protein in the body. It’s what holds you together.”*

Personally, I know the filling of being eaten from within, how every joint hurts 24/7, how tired I get by this pain, how frustrating is to walk, exercise or just move in general and how eager I am for a cure. Because of this battle, I believe, I got adhesive capsulitis also known as frozen shoulder going on now and it hurts like heck.

Diet to help restore collagen. Kale and other deep green leafy vegetables (Yuck! Don’t like them personally), cucumber, salmon, sardines, eggs, celery, olives, bone broth, gelatin (like NeoCell Collagen- that’s what I take).

Restoring immune strength is a must in order to battle and succeed against Lyme Disease or other autoimmune diseases.

I will have to add Vitamin D (a hormone really), C, Magnesium and B’s are very important for proper immune function.

Seems like a lot, right? But don’t loose heart, there’s more to come:) Hope some of this info helps you in your own battles and chin up, we’re here and one day we pray we’ll be pain free.

God Bless:)

*Quotes from the book Unlocking Lyme by Williams Rawls, MD.

Step 2 -Herxheimer reaction-

So you got the Doxy antibiotic treatment, it worked for the first five-six days, you saw a heathy ray of hope shining down on you from the heavens above, you even had the energy, finally, to go out with friends and celebrate the good news, only to find yourself the seventh day down on the floor, with half of your face paralyzed, barely breathing, severe nausea, cold tingling lips and extremities, unable to focus your eyes on anything, in and out of consciousness, absolutely sure that you’re dying. But why? (At least this is what happened to me, your experience may have similar details with many additional symptoms, depending on how your own body was affected).

Well… I wished my doctor would’ve tolled me that Herxing is part of the healing process and why a Lyme disease patient goes through these. The young lady in the video explains it well in my humble opinion, the why and the how to ease the severity of herxing so you can avoid expensive and unproductive ER trips, like mine’s.

Some of the Herxing symptoms: Severe/intense fatigue, joint pain, flue like symptoms, cognitive symptoms, neurological based seizures, nausea, fast heart beating, metal/bitter taste, tingling and numbing of extremities and/or face/lips, dizziness, fog vision, sensitivity to light and noise, sharp bone pain, headaches, are the ones I remember experiencing but there are more out there.

Detoxing: Burbur-Pinella by NutraMedix tincture is my #1 detox product I use, you can easily find it for sale on Amazon https://www.amazon.com/NutraMedix-Burbur-Pinella-Detox-Cleansing-Milliliters/dp/B01B65QJ9S/ref=sr_1_4?crid=24216LOCX00H6&keywords=burbur+pinella&qid=1579729701&sprefix

Warm lemon water is fantastic and inexpensive.

Chlorophyll- liquid form- about 15 drops in your water bottle simply needs to become a life style. The water will look dark green to black, so that can be a cool topic for your friends- vampire water. If you don’t like the taste, or color, use it in pill format. I was too sensitive to charcoal pills, reacted too strongly, so that didn’t work for me, but epsom salt baths are very nice, sauna too.

So if you’re new to this process, let me tell you something I wished I knew. Herxing is scary, and it can feel like you’re dying, however there’s a better life on the other side and if you’re vigilant with your detoxing it’s manageable…still scary and unpleasant though. I imagines the stupid things dying and it put a smile on my suffering. So if you’re herxing that’s because you’re killing them. Yah!

Herxing is part of the healing process, wether you choose antibiotics or a natural approach. Hard to get past it. But keep on killing them!!!!! Now that you’re aware what Herxing is about, what next? If you haven’t caught it in the cute stage (the first 24h- a week) and the doxy helped some, only to make things so much worse, now what? Here is where the medical controversy starts.

Coming up next, but until then God Bless and keep up the hope:)

The monster inside of me- documentary teaser

It’s hard to watch this without feeling the pain of their battles. As I’ve relapsed in September and had seizures or tendencies to fall into one almost hourly, I know how nasty it is. I’m slowly coming out of it, but I’m still in lots of pain, and the cold, gray weather does not help.

I have to focus on one step at the time and keep moving forward. Is it sinister what’s happening to people suffering from this disease? Yes. Is this the only disease hurting others? No. This one, along with a few others are hard to diagnose, understand, and eliminate. So far. We hope the research will reveal a cure and the government will allow it.

Have a good day today and hope for a healthy tomorrow:)

God Bless:)

ME/CFS or Conversion Disorder speech on Ted Talk

ME or Myalgic Encephalopathy, also known as CFS or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Conversion Disorder. 

It’s surprising how about 99% of her symptoms I dealt with and some which remain still deal with. The good news is that I feel soooo much better, despite the mild relapse the past month where I couldn’t touch my chin to my chest due to stiffness and intense pain in the back of my neck and fatigue unusually higher than usual. I’m back on Lyme 2 a tincture that helps calm down the symptoms. I still have a very stiff back neck that crunches all the time I touch but I am so grateful for life in general that I move along:) I have a part-time job now; two hours two times a week cleaning a house, and I’m so happy and proud of myself to be a working woman again. I have deep anxiety before I have to leave, but I take Neurocalm which helps me and this week I’ve just begun drinking Sarsaparilla organic tea which gives me quite a bit of energy and calms my central nervous system as well. Amazon has a brand I use called Buddha Teas, but there are other brands out there to choose from.

For all fellow Lyme Disease, ME, CFS, Conversion Disorder, Cancer and other Autoimmune Issues too many to name, I honestly pray for your complete health or at least bearable symptoms. The cure is out there, we haven’t found it yet. Meanwhile, keep fighting, keep researching and do whatever it takes to heal yourself because if we are to wait for western medicine to do it for us we’d all be dead by now. Maybe one day they’ll catch up as well because they’re seriously behind in autoimmune disease knowledge.

Merry Christmas to everyone reading this blog and a Happy New Year full of an unexpected improvement in your lives.

God Bless:)

Our world and its influence on us

As you can see from the pictures below, we’re living in a bubble during the following renovations months.IMG_3392IMG_3485-1E2F020C0-7348-405B-BDA7-3606DA812B47

Due to asbestos and lead findings in the windows seals, the whole building, along with all the windows, has been fully wrapped in a protective white plastic sheet. At least it’s not black:) Even though it’s suffocating and unpleasant at least is a temporary inconvenience. In comparison to other people’s lives who have been ripped apart by all sorts of tragedies, this inconvenience is minuscule. So I’m greatful.

I find myself outdoors taking daily walks and on such walks, sometimes, I bond with neighbors. This morning I was talking to a retired female who used to work for the Post Office and lived in Seattle, where she was also born, most of her life. There were a few years back in the old days spent in Canada when she used to be married to her first husband, who happened to be a Canadian. She liked living there, mostly but found herself frustrated over a few of the socialistic perks, specifically health care. While talking about this and that she turned the conversation towards the politics. I understood the temptation since we just had mid-term elections on the 6th of November. I could swear that suddenly I was talking to my in-laws. She used the same terminologies and verbiage, the same quotes and so on. The thing is, my in-laws and this woman never met, to my knowledge, yet her words were eerily similar if not verbatim to those of my-in-laws when it came to her political point of view. I walked away knowing such verbiage was learned from TV news reports or newspaper articles, which reminded me how powerful the media is in shaping people’s minds. And that gives me a lot to ponder on regarding my personal thoughts and beliefs which I constantly evaluate and re-evaluate and change when needed because inevitably our world has an influence on us.

On a personal note, I have a part-time job now and it feels fantastic to get back into the swing of things. I’ve joined a book club as well and being part of the community around me is good not only for the soul but for the body as well. Small steps, giant accomplishments:)

Chet’s B-day, yesterday, was a happy event celebrated in the intimacy of our family:) Next week we’ll be celebrating my beautiful girl Meleah’s B-day:) I can’t believe she’s turning twenty-two years old. Time sure flies when you’re having fun, or even when you’re not having fun:)))

Merrill moved in about three months ago and we’re complete again, even if a little cozy in the small apartment. I would much rather have it this way.

Happy with our lives, thankful to God for health, peace, and love. I hope you’re doing well. (For the Lyme sufferers or all other autoimmune disease sufferers, keep on fighting because there is light at the end of the dark and most days unbearably painful season you find yourself in now. Psalm 23 rescued me.)

God bless:)

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