I found myself kneeling today once again before God, both asking and thanking him for his help over my mom who, I found out few hours ago, has been in the hospital these past four days. One kidney totally non-functional and the other one on life support, her creatinine very elevated as well. She’ll be in there for few more days, on treatment and supervision. My mom has lives on the “verge on impossibility” as my sister Delia puts it these past 18 years regarding her health. Major health issues with doctors surprised she’s still breathing. I’ve also seen a woman of faith during these times, strong and not ready to give up but willing to let God have the final say in her life. She’s avoided the hospital like a plaque and for good reasons, but it seems that run has come to a temporary stop. But I’ve been allowed to see something today, a weak and battered body from the inside with all the tissues, nerves, cells and bones, and a liquid light holding everything together like glue. It’s the relationship between God and my mom, my mom and God. When we’re too weak to function his light of great life holds us together:)))))))))) John 1:4

M-am gasit in postura de a ma ingenuchia din nou inaintea Bunului D-zeu, de data asta in sprijinul si sustinerea mamei mele care, am aflat azi, e internata in spital de patru zile. Un rinichi a dat faliment si celalalt e beteag rau. Creatinina e mare (5), normal ar trebui sa fie la 1. Functiile renale sunt atacate de diabet si ne rugam sa nu ajunga la dializa. Ea e in tratement acuma (ceva perfuzii), dar are speranta ca Bunul D-zeu le vede pe toate si le are in control. Mama mea a fost de cind o stiu eu cu cutitul la git din punct de vedere al sanatatii, nasteri grele sau complicatii, tensiune mare etc, si cum zice sora mea Delia “traieste pe linia imposibilitatii” de vreo 18 ani. Dar eu vad altceva, in imagina mintii mele, precum cred ca Duhul Sfint a avut bunatatea sa-mi arate, am vazut un corp slabit si trecut prin multe greutati, tesuturi de muschi, nervi, singe etc cu multe probleme din punct de vedere pamintesc, dar era si altceva in corp, o lumina lichida in fiecare tesut, celula, nerv etc care le tinea pe toate in functiune si in viata. Credinta mamei mele in Bunul D-zeu si viata suflata de Bunul Dumnezeu in tesutul fiintei ele au o legatura as de puternica, o relatie pe vecie. Si asta ma face sa zimbesc si sa stiu ca totul va fii bine orice ar fi. Dumnezeu este lumina si viata, si-i multumesc asa de mult de dragostea lui fata de noi toti!

Ioan 1:4