My mother, Lidia.

For the English speaking friends and family.

My mom, Lidia Damean, died on February 02, at 2:30 pm European time. Her heart stopped due to complications from covid treatment.

My mom was the strongest person I have ever met. Period. She had sixteen children, twelve living until 2002 when we lost Fanu. Eleven remain. She’s suffered more than any one of you will ever know, despite that she always had a smile on her face and those cute dimples made her absolutely adorable. She always encouraged, ALWAYS, anyone going through hard times and had a funny realistic way of looking at life. She made you feel strong and cared for anytime you talked to her and ALWAYS reminded us that God, above all, is worth following and believing in. God gave her the inner strength otherwise I can’t explain her endurance. To say that we lost a monumental treasure is poorly put and I pray that God gives me a fraction of my mother’s strength and wisdom. She was so beautiful, so utterly beautiful! Smart, yet simple.

I smile often when I think of her, because she came to me few days after she died In a younger age, my age in fact, with no wrinkles on her face, and although she never spoke one word, the radiance and constant smile on her face spoke louder than any words ever could. I know she’s no longer in pain. I know she finally met Jesus, whom she dearly loved and I know one day, when I shall leave my body behind, I’ll see both her and my little brother. Until then I remember her smile and radiance, a radiance words could not describe. This image helps me pass the sad moments easier.

We miss you mom! Always will! We love you! And one day we’ll meet again. Until then I’ll remember your words: “Don’t cry for those that left this earth’s problems. They’re with God. Cry for those who remain behind, they’re still in the midsts of the battle.”

Farewell, dear mom, sweet angel.

Mama


Temporar e Doamne crucea grea                               
Temporară este dar și viața mea.
Temporar e și destinul meu,
Temporar e tot ce duce înspre rău. 


Pentru cel căzut și amărât
Cum acuma și eu sunt
Mângăierea este slabă pe acest pământ
Doar puterea Ta, Isuse, ne ridică din ăst greu frământ.

Un război există pe acest pământ
Între trup firav și sufletul plăpând
Și toți știm că trupul ăsta ca un vânt
Va cădea-ntr-o zi într-un mormânt.


Dar cu sufletul vom merge mai departe
Cu Isus vom râde de aproape
Vom uita noi iute viața pământească
Mult zidită printre lacrimi. Nu o să se mai potrivească.


Parcă-aud cum mama iară-și zice:


“Hai, copii iubiți! Nu prinde-ți frică!
Este-un loc departe de mormânt
În prezența celui Sfânt
Unde sufletele se ridică 
Și în pace, fără suferință și intrigă
Vom trăi cu El. O ce câștig!
Nu mai plânge-ți, nu mă mai compătimi-ți
Mai degrabă rămâne-ți uniți,
Că în viața voastră pe pământ,
Vin dureri, atacuri fără legământ.
Eu am terminat a mea umblare
Cu Isus zâmbesc. V-aștept.
Și-mpreună vom da slavă pururea
Celui viu, Slăvit să fie El în veci! Amin! Aici voi încheia.”  -De Carmen McKnight

Numai Dumnezeu poate acum

Carmen si Alin canta alta cantare a fratilor Groza

Din punctul de vedere medical, doctorii au facut tot ce au putut si ii dau mamei noastre nu mai mult de trei saptamani. Numai Dumenzeu este cel care are ultimul cuvint in toate! Amin!

Speranta mea este numa in El, cel care poate face imposibilul si ma rog ca Duhul Sfant sa reinoiasca in intregime atat plamanii ei cat si rinichii ei, sa stabileze inima si sa-i umple fiinta cu saturatia de oxigen necesara unui nivel sanatos.

Mii de multumiri de la intreaga familie Damean de sustinerile voastre in rugaciune. Ma gandesc ca si fratii si surorile mamei mele simt la fel. Dumnezeu sa va binecuvinteze. Amin.

Rating: 1 out of 5.

Vesti

Alin si Carmen canta pe fundalul fratilor Groza- “Am stat de vorba”

Mama inca e la terapie intensiva, deoarece “tulburarile de inima sunt destul de severe” dupa doctorul de sectie si oxigenarea inca nu-i la nivelul la care vor ei. Dar dupa dializa mama sa mai linistit. Inca nu putem vorbi cu ea pentru ca este prea slabita.

Am vorbit cu ambasada romana la Washington DC si Los Angeles. Cu pasaportul american nu pot intra de fel in tara. Numai comuniunea europeana au dreptul sau cei cu pasaport roman la curent. Al meu este expirat. Am inceput procesul de al re-inoi. Acum astept. Pe Chet nu-l lasa de fel in Europa, sau cel putin in Romania. Si acuma voi vedea daca am puterea de a merge singura odata ce primesc pasaportul roman, dupa ce testul de covid va iesi negativ. Pot sta in tara 72 de ore fara carantina dupa care ori intru in carantina ori plec inapoi. Astea sunt in mare noile legi de a calatori din America in Romania si numai cu dovada ca este un caz de urgenta.

Ne rugam in continuare si multumim lui Dumenzeu pentru orice veste buna care o primim cu privire la mama. Va multumesc din nou pentru sustinerile in rugaciune.

Ma incred in tine Doamne

Cantata de Carmen McKnight si Alin Damean-original de la fratii Groza

Multumim din inima de rugaciuni! Domul asculta, slava Lui!

Azi mama este mai bine, mai stabila, nu mai are dureri, a putut termina dializa, oxigenarea sa ridicat de la 74% cu masca de oxigen la 98% tot cu masca de oxigen, fara ea inca nu poate sta pentru ca ar scade nivelul. Inca nu putem vorbi direct cu ea pentru ca-i prea slabita.

Expertiza Deliei, sora noastra, ca asistenta medicala prinde extraordinar de bine in aceste momente. Ea este ambasadorul nostru acum cu cadrele medicale si asa stam la curent si noi cu progresul ei.

Inca e la terapie intesiva datorita fibrilatiei a inimii, deci continuam sa ne rugam pentru stabilitate completa, pentru regenerarea plamanilor care inca nu-s in stare bune, si a rinichilor. Va vom tine la curent si pe voi.

Va multumim din inima din nou pentru sustinearea in rugaciune a mamei noastre- Lidia Damean-si slavit sa fie Domnul in toate, Amin.

Familia Damean traieste un cosmar

Photo by Carmen McKnight

Stiind ca puterea rugaciunii poate misca munti m-am decis sa scriu si sa va cer ajutorul in rugaciuni.

Acum 15 zile mama a fost internata in spitalpozitiva cu covid-19, fara simptome, doar pentru ca era mai usor pentru dializa care o face de trei ori pe saptamana. Azi a fost schimbata la terapie intensiva si e foarte grav.

Va multumim din inima de toate rugaciunile voastre, adunnate au putere mai intensa!

Multumim.

A different kind of medicine

Photo by Edu Carvalho from Pexels

What is your immune system trying to tell you?

In order for us to thrive we need a strong immune system, that much we know. But how do we keep it strong?

-A balanced diet rich in fruits and vegetables raised in a pesticide free soil and mercury free omega fats.

-Supplements like Vitamin C, D and Zinc are a must in addition to B1, B6, B12. Quercetin supplement improves the absorption of Vitamin C but it can stand on its own merits for its role in fighting viral infections and its benefits in protecting the endothelial cells that line the arteries and veins- a recent research in Montreal has discovered. Quercetin is found in apples, onions, capers, red grapes, cherries and green leafy vegetables.

Fermented foods like sauerkraut and probiotics provide a huge boost to the good bacteria numbers found in the gut.

Sleep and plenty of it.

-Avoid Chronic stress. Stress should come and go according to the immediate dangers in our lives. Overthinking a past trauma keeps that danger on a continual conveyor belt, fatiguing our adrenal glands. Then chronic stress starts to break down the immune system. Personally I’ve been guilty of overthinking. It got me in trouble.

Some old fashion approach.

Breast-feeding. Transfer factors are present not only in the white blood cells- I’ll do a whole blog one day on them alone- but also in mammalian colostrum which is “a milky fluid released by mothers who just gave birth before the breast milk production begins. It’s an important source of nutrients that promotes growth and fights disease in infants.” -Google definition. Colostrum “helps jumpstart newborn immune systems and educates them about disease-causing microbes encountered by the mother during her lifetime.”-Transfer Factors & Immune System Health by Aaron White, PhD.

-Washing our hands is just as important as grounding ourselves. What do I mean by grounding? Walk barefoot outside on dirt, dig with your hands in the garden, get close to the earth and share the benefits of releasing EMF through this connection, allow your body to pick up good bacteria necessary for our own survival, but stay away from toxic chemicals sprayed on grass, like Roundup. We live in a bubble of overly clean homes we’ve created for fear of germs, but most of the cleaning products are full of toxins which we breath in and have skin contact with ending up hurting and weakening our immune system more than helping us. Switch to non-toxic cleaning products.

Laugh. For those who can’t see the photos attached (One minute of anger weakens the immune system for 4 to 5 hours. One minute of laughter boosts the immune system for 24 hours.) and (7 ways laughter benefits your health: 1. Reduces stress hormones. 2. Improves circulation. 3. Give your muscles a workout. 4. Improves your immune system. 5.Boost the natural painkillers. 6. You’ll feel a lot happier. 7. More positive in life.)

Community.– We’re like a universe within ourselves. If we isolate we start to break down. Isn’t it interesting that cells who isolate themselves turn cancerous?

Move. Any form of exercise is good, it moves the lazy (sluggish in medical terms) lymphatic system- which is like a garbage pick-up service of the circulatory system- and keeps the toxins from backing up in our own bodies. Here I would also add deep breathing, an alternative for those too weak to exercise but beneficial for all. Personal story here: At one point during my fight with Lyme I lived in bed for months. I was fighting severe air hunger which is linked to a co-infection called Babesia, leaving my breathing frail. Due to prolonged lack of movement my lymphatic system, from waste down anyway, was mostly blocked, meaning is was hardly moving. Upon my Lyme specialist naturopath’s insistence I forced myself to move as much as I could, which at times that meant one trip to the kitchen before severe nausea, body shakes and at times seizure attacks took over. I understand how it feels to be utterly debilitated and not have the energy to go check your mail.

A different kind of medicine allows an integration between alternative and western medicine. The latter has been proven of little help in giving answers or cures when it comes to Lyme disease, MS, cancer and other autoimmune issues. Maybe one day that will change. I’m hopeful.

Find ways to alleviate your sadness with laughter. I know for some people today is a hard day.

God Bless:)

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Unexpected twist

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Okay, where did this come from? I sat down intent on writing an article on supplements, or Lyme remedies, or MRI updates -all is well;)- but out of nowhere this poem just shot right out of my soul and unto this paper. I am both surprised and a little baffled. It pushed its way into existence with force and speed almost as if to shout “I must be heard!” So here it goes, the rest is dull. (It’s raw and unedited, it wants its authenticity.)

Behind the suffering

lies a naked soul

who loves to cry and loudly soar

and lives to struggle, above it all

it’s made of trouble and also bore.

But suffering is all but done

with happy people. Now it’s gone

on passive pastures full of thorns

that’s where it lies above them all.

From there collects the roasting roars

and gives them meaning, then sends them ashore

a land where happiness but gorges

and laughter cycles on shined poles.

It’s there you’ll find the grateful soul

which brings along their broken roar

it’s there where suffering reveals

its truest colors of bright rubine. -Carmen McKnight

Rating: 1 out of 5.

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